A mind full of questions is almost as bad as a blank mind

Have you ever read something so many times that it starts to not make sense anymore?

Have you ever heard so many view points so many times, that they all sound like a guestimation?

Have you ever gotten to a point to where your own understandings start feeling like thoughts of the crowd?

Have you ever thought you knew something without a shadow of a doubt, and then reevaluate your knowledge by repetitive study, only to find out you were possibly wrong the whole time?

So you look into multiple views and professional studies, explanations, and things just don't seem to add up anymore. You ask questions that just can't seem to be answered and in asking these questions, either the response is confusing or in anger, or silent.

Some things aren't meant to be understood just isn't acceptable anymore?
When certain questions are asked, people question a persons mentality, or physical health because they are fine with there own understandings.

And in this quest for reasoning, you find yourself most comfortable with believing that it's true, even though you still question in your heart... What if???

Well I'm here to tell ya folks.... One thing I'm certain about is the heartbeat in my chest, and the blood pulsing through my veins...  And the love for my family.... One day we'll have all the answers to everything...
Or will we??? LOL

spring is in the air

Pollen blowing in the breeze,
Snakes slithering in the grass,
Trees budding new growth,
Out come the wasps and bee's..

The crappie are biting at the spillway,
Kids running around in shorts,
Everyone's enjoying the weather,
A lot more traffic on the highway.

Winds blowing in springtime showers,
Thunder and lightning in the skies,
Green grass growing from all the rain,
Up comes all the weeds along with the flowers.

Itchy eyes and runny nose,
Hay fever and spring cleaning,
Time to get your gardens ready,
That's about the way spring goes...

The Weight of this World

The older I get, the harder this life gets. The more I learn, the less I thought I knew something. The more I see, the more I question things in this life here on this place we call earth. I just thought all the planets we learned in school were so awesome and simple.. one closer and we'd burn up and one further out we'd freeze to death. Now they say were not even the center of our own galaxy, that we are one of millions... The harder I work, the more I realize I'm only wearing myself out and only looking forward to a broken down body for what? Money that could come or go at any moment?
The more people I meet, the more I realize that there are a lot of strange cats in this world.... Including this one....

The more things that seem to fall apart in my life, the more I question how important the things that have come and gone were to begin with and that need and want are two very different things. The more friends I accumulate on my Facebook page, the more I realize that I don't have very many "friends" as I assumed... The drop everything and come running  kind of friends that is....

The bible says everything in this world is vanity... You work to eat and provide your wants and needs, you get married to share your life with someone you love, and raise kids with them to pass on to a new generation. You buy nice things to passify the time to later on not possess because it lost your attention after some time, only to be replaced with something newer and cooler and shinier.... Faster, better...
I look at relationships today and see this ever replacing trend merging into marriages/relationships... Love has been replaced with lust
Men and women trading up like they would a new car.. love losing value .
Things always changing, always getting more complicated and fancier to make life seem simpler... When has actually made us softer, lazier, more demanding, less demanded.. more expensive....
Spend part of your salary on something nice to only have to work more to pay for something you don't have time to use, only possess... What the what?!?...
More time at work and away from home to pay for a higher mortgage, for a home you may never pay off because you had to finance for most of your life....
Cars and trucks that cost as much as a nice home used to cost only to be worth what cars used to cost when you finally get the title in your hand...

These are all depressing bits and pieces to everyones lives today.
You work your whole life to afford these things to realize that the best things in life were free and priceless at the same time...

The days of front porch sitting have been replaced with sitting at the office with no time to kill....
What have we done to ourselves???
We have let ourselves be herded like cattle into a lot of always wanting more to make life happier and grander.... To be weighted down with bills and stress and so much pressure to make your head explode....

God said do not fear, do not worry, and do not sin.... But this life has us running in fear and worrying our lives away because we surround ourselves in sin...
We are then stuck in a self inflicted catastrophe..... And we are like " WHY IS ALL OF THIS HAPPENING TO ME GOD???"
What kind of answer do we expect God to give us for these mountains we build... 
We go to church to hear a heart breaking or heart warming message only to find out it was our fault to begin with.. all along...
Where was God?... Right there ... All along..
Why didn't He do anything to stop us?... He tried, but we wouldn't listen..
Couldn't He have given us a sign or let us know.... He did...
We didn't take heed
Couldn't He have tried to get our attention??....
He did....
He gave us instruction, structure, law, examples, help, a life line, a second chance.... He gave us Jesus, His only begotten Son...
And we still didn't listen...
But for some reason He gave us forgiveness, salvation, redemption through Jesus....

He gives us mercy and grace only to be repaid with anger and bitterness, lust and greed... Sin and self righteousness..

Man that's a lot of weight on my shoulders and heavy on the heart...

He gave His only begotten Son only to be spit on and rejected because He loves you and wants a personal relationship with you... So with that said....
What's important to you..???

What's necessary??

What do you want out of life??

Disbelief

I see it everywhere, atheist are mad because they want their disbelief to be as important as a Christian's faith and belief. Protesting that those that believe in Jesus are setting our children up for failure. Those who celebrate Christmas, Easter, Thanksgiving who allow to let it also share with Santa Clause and elves and North pole, and then the Easter bunny and tooth fairy and little things like that...
I would like to say that we celebrate Christmas and Easter as remembrance of Christ, but I also allow Santa Clause, and the Easter Bunny, and the tooth fairy into my children's lives. Some say we only raise our children in lies to one day be disappointed by the truth..
I try to let my children's imagination be sparked and their hearts be gladdened by a hope in something good in this world, because one day their hearts will be saddened when they see how black and cold the world is without any kind of hope in anything..
I teach my children that there is a hope in Jesus Christ, a promise for a better day.. and one day they will have to figure out on their own if this is truth to them, or a fairy tale like many in this saddened world has come to believe.

I pray that what I believe and teach my children is not a lie, because the darkness and hopelessness of this world is enough to rob any means of happiness from your hearts.

It's one thing to live in this cruel dark world with Faith in more than this, but to live in this world with hopelessness would cause a person to be so torn that you couldn't see any hope in happiness, joy in living, loving another person.. to live would mean to wake up everyday and just get by everyday until it ends, struggling through suffering, pain, heartache, and misery of all the things that has happened in your life and not being able to let go of all that hurt.. taking it all to the grave..

To be here without a purpose, a meaning... Just being here.. you're born, you live, you die....

What's the point in that? Why live a suffering life?

That's why I refuse to disbelieve..
I believe a God, creator, put us here for a reason, just like He takes us out for a reason... I believe that Jesus walked this earth to be a sacrifice for mankind so that there could be hope in humanity..

I read where an atheist wrote that he didn't need a God or saviour to be happy in life, that he was happy because he saw the good in everything...
My question would be, have you ever been through any heartache in.your life whatsoever, and if so how do you see the good in so much evil and darkness?

Was the bible written by man inspired by man? It says it was inspired by God... Was it all made up?... I sure hope not and think not, because if you read the whole bible, there is too much of a personal relationship linked in each book to just be made up.. even the most vivid imagination couldn't come up with some of the things written in the word of God.
Is it our hope and Faith in the bible the only thing that gets us through this life? A hope in a Saviour returning to save those who believe and follow.. ?
People want something they can put their hands on to believe for themselves.... Put your hands on the bible and find out for yourself is the only answer I can give them..
It says do not be like the world...

The only way I cannot be like the world is to believe in the light, because the world is so dark. The problems of this world are not because of the world, it's because of man because of lust, greed, addiction, anger, hatred, guilt, selfish pride...
If you choose to believe or not to believe, that is your choice and obligation in life, and it is also your obligation to find out if there is truth to salvation for your children. If what I believed was wrong, I would want to know the truth.... With that said, I haven't found anything that has disproved God in my life yet... I have questioned many things for many years... And I'm here to tell you, the only way to see the truth of God, is to give yourself completely and study His word. The only way to the Father is through the Son.
Accept Jesus as your Lord and Saviour, confess your sins to Him and repent and you will receive forgiveness and a peace in your life.

If I go my whole life believing that there was/is a God to find out on my death bed it was all a lie, then I did not loose anything.
But if you live your whole life in disbelief, only to find out on your death bed that is was the truth all along, than you have lost everything, hopefully you accept Christ before your last breath.

You've Got a Hold On Me

You've Got a Hold on Me

A Hold On Me

You've got a hold on me,
so tight that I can't breathe,
It's like I can't break free,
from what You're doing to me,

I try to keep my head up,
in this game we call life.
No matter how hard I try,
it's like I always screw up,

You've got a hold on me,
so tight that I can't breathe.
When it gets dark I still see,
You help light the way for me.

When I'm here all alone,
it's like You're never gone.
some things just can't be undone,
With you I've already won.

You've got a hold on me,
so tight that I can't breathe.
I don't want to break free,
from what you're doing to me.

I fall sometimes, You pick me up,
I crash sometimes, You fix me up.
I'm down sometimes, You lift me up,
You've got a hold on me

You've got a hold on me,
so tight that I can't breathe.
Your love sets me free,
from the man I used to be..

You've got a hold on me,
So tight that I can't breathe.
Your love sets me free,
From the man I used to be.

Hold on, You've  got a hold on me..
You really set me free,
You've got a hold on me,
don't let go of me...

Dizzy

New song I'm writing. It's about love and how it can make you so dizzy.. I've been married for 12+ years now and my wife still makes me dizzy sometimes.

Dizzy

My head is spinning around.
I can't seem to slow down.
My head keeps spinning around.
Nothing is slowing me down.
You got me spinning around,
No one can slow me down.

My world is spinning around,
I'm up and can't come down.
My heart is beating so loud,
My feet can't touch the ground.
You got me falling down,
Nothing stops till you come around.

My head starts spinning around,
I can't seem to slow down.
My head keeps spinning around,
Nothing is slowing it down.
Girl you got me spinning around,
No one can slow me down..

My head keeps spinning around,
but now you're here I'm falling down.
My heart still beats so loud,
Finally my feet touch the ground,
Girl you got me falling down,
Nothing stops till you come around..

My head is spinning around,
I can't seem to slow down.
My head keeps spinning around,
Nothing is slowing me down.
You got me spinning around,
No one  can slow me down.

My head is spinning around,
I can't seem to slow down.
My head keeps spinning around,
Nothing is slowing me down.
You got me spinning around,
No one can slow me down.

Knock it Down( edited)..

Knock It Down

It's so amazing....
how a word can knock you down
lift you up
tear you down.

It's so beautiful....
how a memory makes you frown
build you up
break you down..

It's simply wonderful....
how they put their arms around.... you
to lift you up
build you up
and the tears you share can surely bring you down...
to build you up,
you can't stay down...

Never take for granted
any waking moment
Every hour, every breath,  every second you have left..
can lift you up
build you up...
break you down
or tear you down....
Please get up...
please stand up..
I know your down...
please get up..

It's so amazing....
how just a tiny word
can bring you down
lift you up

It's so shocking....
how such a tiny pill
can lift you up
then crash you down

It's so frustrating...
how just a little drink
can pick you up
knock you down

It's so awesome...
What a Savior can do
He can knock it down
lift you up
pick you up
tear it down
lay it down
build you up
He can
break it and bend it
help you stop it and end it
He said for those with burden come to Thee....

And lay it down....

At His feet....

He'll pick you up....

back on your feet...

lift you up...

build you up...

He can knock it down